April 27, 2002

dear friends

How do I tell my close, dear friends that I think they are sweet and wonderful but they are making it very difficult for me to live? How do I tell them that I can’t go on if we continue going on the way we are. How do I tell them I love their company but can no longer love the way we keep our company?

What sort of isolation will this bring? What sort of hardships could I endure?

How do I tell my close, dear friends that I think they are sweet and wonderful but they are making it very difficult for me to live? How do I tell them we can’t hear to the music the same anymore? How do I tell them we don’t find humor in the old jokes anymore? How do I tell them I love their company but can no longer love the way we keep our company?

What sort of isolation will this bring? What sort of hardships could I endure?

How do I tell my close, dear friends that I think they are sweet and wonderful but they are making it very difficult for me to live? How do I tell them who I am now? How do I express my love this way? How can I make them understand what makes me? How do I tell them I love their company but can no longer love the way we keep our company?

What sort of isolation will this bring? What sort of hardships could I endure?

How will they know that things are now different. The reflection in the mirror is the same. The image presented to them will be the same. All my clothes, my shoes, my hat... all the same. If they are who they seem to be, they cannot know.

posted @ 8:39 AM

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