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June 25, 2003

physically ill

Baths used to make me feel good, like a new person. Meditation and yoga used to have similar effects. Now when I do any of these activities I don’t feel that much better. In fact, today I felt worse after the bath. I sat on the meditation cushion for a long time this morning. I wasn’t meditating the whole time, it was just a comfortable posture and allowed for some reflection.

Christina and I have been talking about purchasing a motor home to live in full time. We decided to write down ten cities in the United States where we’d like to try living for a little bit and do just that. This morning I wrote down mine:


  1. Ithaca, NY

  2. Taos / Santa Fe, NM

  3. St David, AZ

  4. San Louis Obispo, CA

  5. Bay Area (Santa Cruz, Berkeley, San Francisco), CA

  6. Astoria, OR

  7. Arcata / Eureka, CA

  8. Missoula, MT

  9. Loveland / Ft Collins / Boulder, CO

  10. Flagstaff, AZ

Christina requested I do this because I’m getting physically ill before work. I don’t want to go, so I work myself up into this knotted mess nearly every day. Jobs in the Flathead Valley are few and far between, so it doesn’t leave much alternative other than moving. Besides, Bodhisattva vow number 130 (a secondary offense against the precepts of the prayer for the wish for enlightenment) states: Failing to take yourself to a holy lama. Hence, the top five are strictly for the purpose of finding a good teacher. The rest are nice places and close to known teachers, so they would also do.

I’m not sure we’ll be able to get the motor home, but we can probably save enough to move. My hope is to get down to just one chest of my personal things (the bedroom — think clothes and bed — kitchen, computer and other electronics not included). CDs, tapes, books, photos, magazines, writings, alter stuff, office supplies... all of that should be able to fit into the trunk. Maybe I’ll start the zanwat auction when I’m ready to get rid of some things. I’ll keep you posted.

posted @ 11:14 AM

comments

numbers 7 and 9 on your list are great... me and corey are talking about going to oregon before he starts his fall term, i haven’t been there since i was a little kid.. loveland.. hahahaha oh goodness, you know on valentines day little old ladies there hand stamp your envelopes w/ these love stamps.

posted by freedom on June 27, 2003 11:15 AM

Now, see... that’s what I’m talking about. Little old ladies hand stamping envelopes with love stamps. That’s what I need.

posted by Tom on June 28, 2003 07:24 AM

I am in San Francisco. There are a lot of wacky cults out here, but also lots of good Buddhists.

Over in Marin County, 20 miles north of San Francisco, we have Spirit Rock and Jack Kornfield, of course. I have a lot of respect for him, but I was offended by the presence of a “singles night” at the meditation center. Apparently Jack has created some sort of sex-positive Buddhism, which is a real hit out here, of course.

posted by Sam on July 14, 2003 05:29 PM

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