June 16, 2004

the update

lot’s to write about — other than work — but it seems like work is all i have time for. it’s good for me to get things out of my head sometimes. so pardon me for the following freeform:

::..beastie boy’s new album (in stores 6/15) is pretty okay. third time through it. it’s hardcore. (”but aren’t all their albums like that?” she says.) maybe, but not like this. not in the last 15 years, anyway. i can’t decide if that’s bad or good or just is.

::.. but, wait. priorities, priorities. we now have a correct pronoun. she will (”probably, most likely, 99% sure”) be a girl. and we shall call her Daechen. (”give her a normal middle name,” he says.) Emalee. because my mom’s middle name is Emma and my other mom’s middle name is Marie and both of christina’s parents have Lee as a middle. so it’s “normal” in a slightly less than robert thurman, frank zappa kind of way.

::.. i’m reading stephen levine’s book, a year to live. subtitled: how to live this year as if it were your last. i’m a bit scared of dying at age 27, have been for years. i don’t think it’s healthy to be afraid of death. it will come someday and we don’t want to live in fear of that moment. even if it really hurts to live...

::.. christina’s uncle died yesterday. he was a wonderful person. lot’s of good stories and a great laugh. he had hepatitis c and then cancer. he has been in a lot of pain the last seven years. buddhists say that your “mind” continues on after death, just as it did before this life. (”we’ve all been doing this for a very long time,” they say.) so long it’s called “countless”. hopefully uncle bruce is getting through this time okay. the funeral is saturday in los angeles.

::.. and then there’s work... but first, sleep..::

posted @ 9:21 PM

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