March 2, 2005

pushing buttons

i used to write things down and work them out. now i just sit and think about them. i run these little circles in my mind.

the only writings i ever really save are poems.

my boss says that the musicians seem to have it all figured out in the basic, simplistic way.

the world doesn’t work like music and poetry though. the japanese own US treasury bonds. essentially they own our debt. it’s nice that someone does, but it isn’t simple.

circles, however, have no beginning and no end. buddhists say the mind is beginning-less and endless. they too make it sound simple.

i just don’t have the time to write it all down and i don’t want to save something that isn’t simple or useful.

i used to enjoy writing music. i still enjoy listening to it.

is it worth getting upset about the things you are or are not allowed to do? what about the things you can or cannot control – is it okay to get upset about them? what control do you really have and what does it mean to be not allowed to do something?

do not push this button.

did you? did you want to? oh, you did? you must be human.

what is it that i want to think about all the time? more importantly, what is it that i don’t want to think about?

that wouldn’t be a simple list.

posted @ 9:40 PM

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